you think you know but you have no idea!

I have always been really kid friendly, I have never really understood but kids just seem to flock to me.  I can be in the middle of the store and babies, and little toddlers are smiling and cooing and talking to me!!  They stare at me like im Santa! lol  I love being kid friendly.  It makes me wonder why I haven't seen my calling before now?  It's always been clear if I think back and really look at my life and I see clearly what my path has always been!  Ashton has changed my life in so many ways!  He has made me a better mom and I love him even more for that!  It's worried me that because of Ashton's Autism status that his big brother gets put on the back burner!  Now I am a very fair mom and I do not love one more than the other.  But I do worry that maybe I am a bit more laid back with Ashton.  I do not play favorites but I think with Ashton's Autism I just allow him to get away with more.  And with that I am scared that Taylor will grow up and resent Ashton for his disability!  How do I stop that??  Taylor is such an amazing big brother, he is sweet and caring and protective toward his little brother.  He helps him with everything, books, coloring, toys, games, movies! EVERYTHING!  He also helps me with Ashton.  He is such a huge support to me and Ashton.  But what if he grows up and then gets upset with all the extra attention Ashton gets?  How do I explain to him that this extra attention is a neccesity for Ashton's development.  Advice is appreciated and I look forward to your feedback!